Tired of feeling victimized by our children. Waking up dizzy and exhausted and this after a full night's sleep. Really, the springboard for my feelings just now is concern for my health. I'm so incredibly addled. I truly can't think straight. I know it's the stress of the messes our boys have put us through, here lately, but now I've had enough. I'm just plain angry.
I wrote them tonight and sent the emails, praying all the while, saying what was on my heart. Needed to take some sort of authority, because their actions have ruled my life for the past few weeks. Enough.
Misery isn't where I want to spend my life. I have MY life to live, and if they're determined to live in the darkness, I can't stop them, but I can stop it ruining my days. Hard for a mom, but with God's help, should be attainable.
Haven't felt crisp in my head in about a month. I've done some reading, and anxiety and stress are big contributors to dizziness. Who knew?
One day. Just one day. With God's help, I can manage that, I do believe. Got to keep kicking those evil spirits out the door, though. I'm riling the little creeps by speaking out. Obviously, tomorrow will be an incense/mark the doors with hyssop sort of day. Yeah, ready to rumble...
Greater is He that is in me, than he that is in the world.
