While my husband is ready to buy wood and get to work on these projects (finally, after a dry spell) I really want to have a couple more days of holiday-ness. I'm not ready to face the pressures of real life, but want to chill. Not easy in this busy household.
Monday will get here soon enough, but the fact is---a house supported by a husband's self-employment forces you into a spot to work when you can, and as much as you can. Not always fun. Sometimes more challenging than I'd prefer.
And I'm noticing that the Lord and I run on opposing timetables. He sees things totally differently, and it seems I'm a bit slow on the uptake with that, aren't I? While I have things all settled in my head and have organized the living daylights out of situations, I'm seeing that God's viewpoint on how I should run my days is so varied from mine. I used to figure that if I prayed about something, then what followed must be correct. I limit myself by what I can actually see.
I'm rambling.
But I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm making moves to slow down my thinking. To live more in a way that's eternally-minded. I go from task to task, relieved when one is finished and I can be free to go to the next one. Doesn't leave much room for fun, but gets the job done. I had an eye-opening situation come at me yesterday, and it caused me to stop and realize how blessed I am, and how I often take that for granted. I go for life at a swift pace (easy to do when you're caring for a family of 10) and seldom pause except by demand. My one weakness is reading, and unfortunately that tends to be more of an escape than a joy at times.
Something to think about, but then again, I really don't want to over-think it. That would end up making my attempts at slowing down part of my get it done mindset. Don't want to do that.
Monday will get here soon enough, but the fact is---a house supported by a husband's self-employment forces you into a spot to work when you can, and as much as you can. Not always fun. Sometimes more challenging than I'd prefer.
And I'm noticing that the Lord and I run on opposing timetables. He sees things totally differently, and it seems I'm a bit slow on the uptake with that, aren't I? While I have things all settled in my head and have organized the living daylights out of situations, I'm seeing that God's viewpoint on how I should run my days is so varied from mine. I used to figure that if I prayed about something, then what followed must be correct. I limit myself by what I can actually see.
I'm rambling.
But I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm making moves to slow down my thinking. To live more in a way that's eternally-minded. I go from task to task, relieved when one is finished and I can be free to go to the next one. Doesn't leave much room for fun, but gets the job done. I had an eye-opening situation come at me yesterday, and it caused me to stop and realize how blessed I am, and how I often take that for granted. I go for life at a swift pace (easy to do when you're caring for a family of 10) and seldom pause except by demand. My one weakness is reading, and unfortunately that tends to be more of an escape than a joy at times.
Something to think about, but then again, I really don't want to over-think it. That would end up making my attempts at slowing down part of my get it done mindset. Don't want to do that.
