This will be a post I work on in fits and starts, I'm thinking. Got to have some time alone with Gary, last night, and it helped my head. We popped into Starbuck's (got an iced chai latte---yummy), and we were able to sit for awhile and talk. Told him how scattered I've felt for such a long time, and how it seemed to have started when our oldest launched himself out in the working world--(this happened several years back, so you can see how long I've been feeling out of kilter). Anyway, that oldest son quickly made enough money to buy his own car (used and bought out-right), and was soon working 40+ hour work weeks. That's all for the good. But now, times have changed in the world, and it's not so easy for a young man to find work---even the most basic of jobs aren't as prevalent. We have 2 sons younger than him who are having difficulty finding work. They had a lawn business until this past fall, and told clients they'd be working elsewhere this spring, so that they'd have to find other folks to do their yards. Fast forward to now, and the boys don't have jobs. Gulp. Life's funny that way.
Gary says I need to release control over what goes on with the kids, at least the older ones. Some of it is God's timing with them, coupled with a hard financial climate *out there*.
