Thursday, August 13, 2009

Changing my focus

I'm realizing that my attitude needs adjusting when I focus too keenly on things I cannot change. Woke up all angry about the situation last night with Gary's customer, but can't tote that frustration around with me all day.

There is stuff for dinner, though I'm not taking on tomorrow's feeding frenzy yet. These kids do eat a lot. It sometimes boils down to just doing today, or the current hour, or not even the whole 24 hours. Not easy, but necessary.

With us now waiting on two clients to pay balances, we're in a position to trust God even more. Gary says that this must be happening for some reason, though we don't know what that reason is. To be honest, though, I'd rather be expecting payment than for the opposite to be true---to not have any monies due from anyone. Now that's hard for sure.

So, while the majority of the kids spend the day at my mom's, I think I'll putter at home. Just worked with my little jade plant. I overwatered it lately, and some of it got wiggly. Broke off the good part and will re-pot it in a few days, after it hardens off. Just needing the comfort of homey routines---the things that need to happen and tend to settle my mind. There is certainly rest in that. Will see how that works.

(photo of jade plant not my own...I wish!)