Something acted up with our electricity on Friday, which may require my husband installing a new switch box (which he bought today), and it sent me into a panic, something that's easily done. Fell asleep last night in a totally fearful state. I told my husband that my mind often goes to the place of the 'worst case scenerio' and he jokes that it must s*ck to be me. Had to laugh. He doesn't get this sort of fear, being able to blow things off. But you know, rarely does that other shoe ever drop. I should know this.
This morning as I was sitting having my tea with Violet the Pug in my lap, I spoke to the Lord about this dilemma of mine. This fear. Visualized Him sitting near me, speaking such love. Quieting my flying heart. Do I even understand how He wishes me to not be so traumatized by such simple (and easily remedied) situations? Probably not. My stress level this year maxed out. Guess this is normal. Least for me until I get my mental health back. We're working on it.
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Oldest daughter and I went out for the afternoon today, which was very healing. Went to lunch and then to a small town just to the east of us. One of the shops in the Town Square was having a sale and will be closing after the new year begins. I was able to find some linens (two sets of cloth napkins and a tablecloth), and will give some of the brocade napkins to married son and his wife along with a decorating book for Christmas. Love this sort of shopping. I spent only nine dollars on these things. Amazing. Also got a Confederate Flag pin to wear on my denim jacket. Quite honestly, it was my favorite purchase.
As we walked around the Square as we were ready to leave, we noticed a bluegrass band practicing in the gazebo, preparing for a wedding. With both autumn and Christmas decorations round about, the green looked so pretty. White folding chairs set up, the groomsmen in grey tuxes and bridesmaids wearing beautiful black dresses, it was all wonderfully festive. And hopeful. Though very windy!
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As we walked around the Square as we were ready to leave, we noticed a bluegrass band practicing in the gazebo, preparing for a wedding. With both autumn and Christmas decorations round about, the green looked so pretty. White folding chairs set up, the groomsmen in grey tuxes and bridesmaids wearing beautiful black dresses, it was all wonderfully festive. And hopeful. Though very windy!
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Seems tomorrow will be the lull before the true busyness begins. It's the last Sunday to have flowers to arrange because other women handle the Advent Poinsettias and altar decorating. I'll have a break, which will be grand. I enjoy doing the flowers, but time off will be nice---not ashamed to admit that.
Time to turn off my head. Looking forward to Sunday.
(listening to You Are God Alone by the Women of Faith)
