I deleted a post the other night about a pretty important prayer request. Thought I was sounding a bit too needy, and didn't want to leave that impression. Seems I put myself out on a line when I'm too revealing. But the way I figure it, folks need to hear when others are struggling. Not always easy in an Internet-like environment, but I seem to feel comfortable baring it all. I'm not too awfully proud.
My prayer, as yet, is unanswered. I won't go into details, but it's pretty vital that this gets taken care of soon. God knows. His timing is different than mine, but I have to believe that He knows what He's doing. I mean, really, and not in a superficial way. I have to realize this in my heart.
One of our sons was playing a song by Audio Adrenaline this afternoon while we were out in the truck. Part of the words go like this: "Make me, take me, break me, I am pierced." Now if that doesn't touch your heart, then nothing will. Well, maybe the requirement is to be driven to the ground in need. I'm there.
I've got to sometimes get to the place where I want and need nothing but the Lord in my life. Do you realize how difficult that is to attain? We truck around so much baggage and want. I still don't know what His will is in regards to our prayer, but my first desire HAS to be God. Period. So hard. But, you know, there's a deep joy attached to that, knowing that He has the answer.
In those lyrics, the 'break me' part is the most important. I'm learning about that now. The strange thing is that it hurts and feels good at the same time. Go try to figure out God. :)
My prayer, as yet, is unanswered. I won't go into details, but it's pretty vital that this gets taken care of soon. God knows. His timing is different than mine, but I have to believe that He knows what He's doing. I mean, really, and not in a superficial way. I have to realize this in my heart.
One of our sons was playing a song by Audio Adrenaline this afternoon while we were out in the truck. Part of the words go like this: "Make me, take me, break me, I am pierced." Now if that doesn't touch your heart, then nothing will. Well, maybe the requirement is to be driven to the ground in need. I'm there.
I've got to sometimes get to the place where I want and need nothing but the Lord in my life. Do you realize how difficult that is to attain? We truck around so much baggage and want. I still don't know what His will is in regards to our prayer, but my first desire HAS to be God. Period. So hard. But, you know, there's a deep joy attached to that, knowing that He has the answer.
In those lyrics, the 'break me' part is the most important. I'm learning about that now. The strange thing is that it hurts and feels good at the same time. Go try to figure out God. :)
