Might have rattled some cages yesterday with my list of nouns and adjectives to describe my mental state. But I figure most of you know what I'm talking about. Just stating the obvious of what goes on in my thoughts when a major prayer session is in progress.
I've never been one of those women who has a restful, pleasant manner when it comes to prayer. I tend to get rowdy---not loud, but busy in my head. I tend to experience such an abundance of emotions, just wrestling with God and puzzling over His timing.
Still, nothing has happened in the material world, but my heart is peaceful, so I guess that's something. There comes a time, for me, when I quit fighting and just let go of my worries. Now, I don't guarantee I'll be so settled tomorrow, but maybe I will. Hope so. Well, honestly, I'll be preoccupied with Violet's surgery, so that's something. Nervous? Oh yeah.
In other news, Gary put my truck up for sale online, and he's had a couple of calls. One a good old boy (the South is full of 'em) who just wanted to chat and another who appeared to be a scammer. They're pretty obvious. Anyway, we wait for God's timing. Folks say it's perfect, but sometimes that's hard to swallow. I mean no disrespect, but I like my timing better. :)
Reminder: Life isn't all about what we want. It's not about the job, or the way I feel about things. Not about paying bills or MONEY. It's about God's plan for my life. It's about how we're raising our kids. And it's about eternal sorts of stuff. Rinse and repeat. Lock and load. You know what I mean.
