Drained. This has been some week. While I've felt the Lord right by my side every day, I've also felt an enormous pressure. I yearn for a bit of time with no burdens pushing up against me. You'd think I had a handle on that with my talent for juggling, but that would be a lie. My emotions are showing a tiny bit much, and my head is thumping just a tad.
I need to turn off my brain (as I mentioned over here), but easier said than done.
I think partly it's about how God answers a prayer just enough, and not overmuch. Say you're praying for paying for a bill, and He allows that amount and not a penny over. Pretty astounding to see Him work, but I still scratch my head like an Israelite saying, "Now that's wonderful, Lord, but how 'bout some more?" Never satisfied.
Or I read the verses about looking to today and not borrowing tomorrow's responsibilities or worries. So, what do I do? Yeah, I borrow tomorrow's responsibilities and worries. I can be so dense.
I'm very thankful for what He's doing, but maybe I'm just tired to boot.
