Yesterday was one of those odd days, and I can't really tell you why. Let's just say that I'm glad it's today now. Got my copy of Robert Benson's 'BETWEEN THE DREAMING AND THE COMING TRUE: The Road Home to God' in the mail late yesterday afternoon (our mail comes at the tail-end of our mail lady's route, and sweetly, her husband turns up before dark and follows her in her mail truck while she finishes up). I read it after dinner and right before going to sleep. Finished it, and let me say, he writes good stuff. Just what I need to hear at this place in my life. The one I intend to get next is, 'DIGGING IN : Tending to Life in Your Own Backyard'.
With 3 of his books now nesting in my head, I feel more settled about some things. Nothing major, but he writes in such an honest way. I'll admit that this year has been hard. And it's not been, so much, things within my immediate family, but outer things that have hit me square between the eyes. Thankfully, Gary's work has been steady----steadier would be nicer, but that's out of my realm of control. I'm not God, remember?
Anyway, I'm ready to let go of some grief that's been hounding me. Realized that with the death of my oldest friend, Dana, last December, I've felt the sadness of her illness and death on a regular basis. And like in the olden days, how folks would wear black for a year afterward, I'm hoping I can throw off the mental black I've been wearing as well. 'Course I wear a lot of black as well, but that's me being a fashion statement, not necessarily demonstrating my mourning.
So, today is a new day, and is a bit warm to boot. Temperatures in the low sixties today (where'd that come from?), but overcast, so if you look out the window at the yard, you *think* it's chilly, but it's not. Oldest daughter even turned off the heater in the house before she went to work. It's that nice here.
And this might be the only day this week I can stay home all day. Need to find some more tiny things for stockings, but that's it. Well, need to shop for Christmas dinner, but that can wait as well. Chicken pot pie for dinner here, and that's easy, so will just putter around the house. Down-time sounds mighty appealing just now.
