One of my challenges on a daily basis is trying to NOT look at each day as running a race. I tend to spend a few seconds in the morning, before I even get out of bed, making a mental list of what needs doing. Then I must get into racing mode, because the rest of the morning is spent in cramming in as much activity as possible, not realizing that life can be enjoyable.
I'm so pitiful.
Christmas almost makes it harder. The pressure of performing those duties has gotten a bit old. And this year is the first time ever I've not hung up outside lights. I have a *who cares* mentality, and the funny thing is, only one of the kids (the 18yearold) has asked about it. Huh.
Rather I'm thinking the New Year and how I want to change things. (don't we all?) I really want the word 'simplify' to be on my radar, along with 'joy', 'relax' and 'laugh'. My husband would get a kick out of that, being that he told me the other day that I've forgotten how to have fun. Admitted that he has too, for awhile, but said that since he's searching/shopping online for a Harley, that at least he's got a tiny idea of what makes him happy. Now, mind you, he wasn't being cruel, but tends to wrinkle his brow when he sees me being so angsty. He's right.
Yesterday was such *fun* with my alone time and movie, that I'll have to pencil in some jollies today as well. Life truly is short. And happiness *is* allowed. (make note to remember this)
