OK, here's what I know. It's not much, but appears to be truth in my life. When I'm so wracked with sadness (like now), it seems that I'm putty in God's hands. Like I was reading the online news regarding the health care nonsense, and found myself totally releasing my worries about it. Just pointed to the computer screen, and asked the Lord to take care of that one, since it's so totally beyond me.
Pain makes me more pliable. I don't have the energy to fight, and am more willing to resign myself to what God wants, and not what I seem to think is so important. Am putting all my cards out there for whatever He feels is best. Not that I'll always agree, but really, it's just better that way.
I don't know diddly, but am realizing anew that what I gnash my teeth about is better handled in His time. There's a relief in that too.
(...but I think my head's gonna explode from trying not to cry in front of these kids. Dang. My girlfriend's funeral service is tomorrow morning at 11am, with visitation at 10am. This shouldn't be happening, but again, God IS Sovereign.)
Pain makes me more pliable. I don't have the energy to fight, and am more willing to resign myself to what God wants, and not what I seem to think is so important. Am putting all my cards out there for whatever He feels is best. Not that I'll always agree, but really, it's just better that way.
I don't know diddly, but am realizing anew that what I gnash my teeth about is better handled in His time. There's a relief in that too.
(...but I think my head's gonna explode from trying not to cry in front of these kids. Dang. My girlfriend's funeral service is tomorrow morning at 11am, with visitation at 10am. This shouldn't be happening, but again, God IS Sovereign.)
