However.
Since I've been reading Psalms morning and evening this month, my outlook has changed quite a bit. I don't feel as desperate, and almost feel more content. It's not knee-jerk praying that I'm doing, but more deep-felt, if that even makes any sense. It's more of a thread that weaves through my day. And about those Psalms---The Book of Common Prayer has a set-up where the Psalms are read through completely every month. Of course, you don't need someone to tell you how to read them, but a organized plan seems to keep me up to speed.
It also makes sense that if a person spends more time with God that they'll feel more secure. Wish I hadn't always been such a stubborn student about that. And really, simply being a Sunday Christian isn't much help in the world these days. Life is harder and requires a steadier faith. Workin' on that.
Yeah, the bills are still late, and it's sometimes a daily effort to trust in that Daily Bread. But you know, it's there. Always. Sometimes late, but eventually always there. We're in a fallen world, remember.
And you know what gives me a rush? When I ask the Lord for/about something and almost instantly the answer shows its face. Just blows me away. And yes, it's happened a lot lately.
