Friday, January 7, 2011

Once again, it's not about me

Tired today. Have been on the move these past few days, as you know, and have worried plenty, and I guess it's time to just stop. Even oldest daughter told me to get back into bed to rest this morning---saying I looked so tired. 'Course I didn't have any make-up on at that time as well, so, you know.

Anyway, was trying to work up the enthusiasm and energy to go to the store and fetch something for dinner. Hadn't gotten very far except for getting dressed, when my mom called. This was around lunch-time. She was at the grocery store at that very minute and asked what I needed/wanted. (exhale an abundance of air) Let's say that she pulled enough information out of me to get a list for dinner. We're having chili.

The thing is, my mom is 82 years old, and we've been doing her shopping for weeks (until recently) when she's been feeling draggy and under the weather. But considering how slowly she has to move (her hips give her fits), to have her wait on us really is hard. Must've been what the Lord had in mind, though, and I'm praying He blesses her with a pain-free afternoon as a reward.

Guess I'm not always keen on how He runs things, including how He answers our prayers. He tends to get other folks involved, when my pride would rather Gary and I do the chores. And it's not about being beholding to others, but just wanting to be able. Only that. To be able to do it.

I'm crying now, so forgive me for being emotional.

My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. (2 Corinthians 12:9-10)